I dont really know what is happening to me...I keep saying I'd update this blog frequently for all you awesome friends to read, but each time I fail. I hope that people are still reading this and take an interest in what I do or mainly think about. I have been so terribly busy lately and Im working so many hours and when I get home I catch up with people on msn and such, check my facebook, make some food. I just like Im making no time for myself. Im taking all hours that are offered to me...I havent even really been able to make it to the gym as much. Project Sylo is reaching critical level.
I need to get a grip and shake myself like a coconut tree and drop it like its hot! I have moments in my days where I feel really good and I can conquer anything, but I realise Ive been lacking and havent been pushing myself in regards to Sylo. This is where slight regret slips in and I start feeling guilty about letting myself suffer from setbacks to my own fault. I am fairly annoyed at my actions, or lack thereof. Does anyone else feel this at all? In any change you make in your life, however small. Do you feel this slight frustration and guilt everytime you feel like you just arent trying hard enough?
The important thing to remember is that you have to take responsibility for this. Its no good me turning round and saying, "Im working too hard", because I asked for it, nor would it be fair to say, "Im busy catching up with my friends" because I enjoy their company and conversations. I just simply need to manage my time better and fit in some "me time" where I can go to the gym, write poetry, and update my blog and perhaps read a little more too. I am definitely slacking in all the aforementioned activities and for this I am disappointed in myself, but Im equally happy to take full responsibility and I will take action against this :)
Most of you probably dont know, but for the last month, a housemate has been acting so terrible and causing so much uproar and discomfort in the house that it has unsettled everyone, including me. His aura and moods affect the flow of the house and changes peoples moods and motivation. It adds to my lacking motivation. On the 1st of April I am moving into a beautiful house with a nice big spacious room, with a desk and all other furnitures needed to well...live. This room is currently lacking those facilities. Ive also met the housemate I'll be moving in with, and all seem very laid back and chilled out. They are all phD students, which is comforting :) So I predict a growth of success with project sylo and a dramatic increase in happiness and motivation.
Me moving out after only being here for 2 months is showing my strength to not accept any crap in my life. I wont stand for this idiots behaviour towards me or the rest of the house. I am taking action and moving to better surroundings and more comfortable environment. Know that you have the power to do this also. If there is one thing in your life thats eating away at you and you keep thinking "I really should deal with this, its not good for me" DEAL WITH IT! Dont stand for anything you dont want or like. We all have the power to control what and who are in our lives. Dont be miserable because of someone or something else, find a solution and combat the problem. This is the small journey Im currently making. I cant predict that it will lead to happiness, but I am certainly hoping that it'll be a step :)
Goodnight to you all and I really hope you keep reading my blogs. I seriously appreciate your time. Thank you :)
No comments:
Post a Comment