Wow...

What a really frustrating day....had to work a 12 hour shift, and only had a 30 minute break in which I had to travel a mile home, have a shower, make something to eat and then go to another place of work...wasnt even a break! Then had to stay behind half an hour later because Damian cocked up the balance of til, so we had to find the error...wont even get paid for staying that extra fucking time...

Then I heard one of my favourite regulars died, he was really keen on me, we got on really well....Im gonna find out when his funeral is. I didnt even know his name, yet he knew mine...it doesnt seem justified.

Then Ottilia just decided to tell me to leave her alone. All I told her was I missed her and we dont talk as much anymore...so now Ive lost yet another fucking friend, and I dont even know why! Life is on a downward spiral for me atm...Im sure it will pick up within a couple of weeks...but right now, I feel really shitty and unloved and unhappy and resentful to everyone.

Atm, I really love listening to Ellie Goulding sing live, and watching her on youtube. She is so incredibly attractive and she has an amazing voice, can play the guitar and drums....must be great to posses so many talents and perform them together. I also love "In another life we must be cats" by maybeshewill...Its a really great track for chilling out to, and getting rid of some anger.

I dont know....May I find just a shimmer of happiness soon...