So in recent weeks Ive been noticing a reoccuring pattern in my behaviour. I always seem to take one step forward, then two steps back. Sometimes the step forward will be in my head, and the two steps back appear in physical form. I like to fantasize about being productive and really kickstarting myself and progressing...but something happens...It doesnt feel like procrastination. Well maybe it is, perhaps in disguise?
I WILL make Project Sylo a full time project and not just a list of rules I can just pick and choose from.
I WILL follow a daily routine that will improve my life, my health and my happiness.
This is becoming tiring...to myself. I think of time that has passed, and think "If I had begun this way back then, I would have been 'X' by now" and that frustrates me to an unfathomable (is that event a word?!) degree. I cant seem to shake this, but I most definitely WILL very very soon.
Also girls, you suck! Many apologies. You just love fooling around with us guys D: Ive also discovered that Im the catalyst for your happiness. So if any point you've become interested in me and then its waned, you will most definitely find a boyfriend very soon after! Okay, this may seem a little childish, but whatever. Im also growing tired of finding a girl who is actually genuine, honest and committed. But Im The Seeker of Happiness for a reason :/
However, on a more positive note: I am putting a lot of effort into making my friends happy, and hopefully Karma will come around and reward me for such efforts :P Its great to know that I can create happiness within my friends, because they mean so much to me :)
Im not quite sure what else I wanted to say here. I also felt guilty for not updating in a while for there is not much to note. Im a more philosophical blogger as opposed to posting about boring, crappy everyday stuff ^^
Goodnight lovely, awesome people! :3
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