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"I wont ever be distracted by the ones who want me to fail."

Saturday, 21 May 2011

Belated Blessing of a Befriender

So yet again, someone predicted that the world will end....when will these people see that their flawed logic and clearly insane prediections just do not cut it. Im not quite sure of why people feel the need to share their opinions with the world about the worlds demise, and their opinion gets publicised because they have credentials :/

Besides, even if the world did happen to end earlier this evening, Ive had a bloody good month! Possibly one of the best Months of my life. Full of cherished memories and events, new friendships, potential and personal improvement. I feel I have been blessed, for an athiest, life sure works in a strange way in my eyes.

Sometimes I fail to realise just how awesome my life is. Im not trying to come across as big-headed or cocky, because believe me, I have my flaws and doubts in general. But looking at my life comparitively, I have it pretty damn good. It makes a huge difference to my mindset. This time last year was pretty damn awful and terrible and would really not want to relive them days at all. However, there are just a few problems/concerns I have. I would like to find a good confidant/friend that I confess to...because lately Ive been needing to talk to people but I find my trust is tested when I feel myself allowing my issues to be in the hands of someone I trust. I miss having a person I can tell anything to and know that it will all be okay and that someone listens without judgement.

Its been a long time since Ive been close with anyone, enough to trust them with my inner thoughts and feelings. Ive had a few very close friends, but they have devastated my trust and I also made foolish mistakes. There is one person who Im starting to think has the potential to be a very close friend, but Im still wary with the amount of trust and personal information I give him...I guess thats only natural right...?

For now, I am committing myself fully to project sylo and will be doing everything I can to enforce the "rules" within my project. I cannot let myself slip too many times, because I will deviate from everything that is meaningful. This project is the catalyst to a better life and better mind and hopefully it'll lead me somewhere close to happiness...

If you are reading this and communicate with me on a regular basis, or you see me frequently or occasionally, then chances are I like you. Im also very extremely glad for your time. I very much enjoy the company of people who are willing to show that they appreciate mine. Thanks for reading, I know its not a deep entry, but just wanted to update :)

Goodnight everyone :)

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